“I don’t know, just because he gave us a ride to his ranch doesn’t mean we have to stay. Or we can leave later tonight while he sleeps after we all had some rest.” she replies.

All the guys were excited to stay at the ranch a few days. Before they even had a chance to shower, shave, rest, and eat, she is already planning to leave. Leo couldn’t understand why again she cannot stop for a second. She is always on the move.

Can you imagine constantly going, even though your body tells you to stop and look around. Enjoy the now. Can you imagine punishing yourself constantly now so that later you could possibly enjoy the rewards of your wait and sacrifice? Sure you can. Almost everyone lives this way some point in their life for one reason or another. Some sacrifice external pleasures so they can go to Heaven. Some save for years to buy a new house. Some spend time, money and energy in their business instead of self, so that the business may take care of them later. She has a goal in mind and won’t stop until she gets there. But she must learn, as we all, that sometimes you have to give yourself a break.

If you just started yesterday or only been on a mission for only a week or so, then I would say keep working harder before taking a break. But if you have been at it for a long while, with little food or rest, then yes, it is important for all of us to understand that we have to listen to our body and sometimes you have to give yourself a break. Don’t be so hard on yourself. That is the extent of my advice and opinion. I don’t have the details to give more input on their situation. Each person has their limit that they either choose to stay within or go beyond.

If I may go back to my trip for two weeks in Ireland. I went to go see the Giants Causeway, walked as far as I could, to see as much as possible. I got back towards the visitor’s area to catch the last bus of the day pulling out of the station. I ended up staying at a Bed and Breakfast for the night. I guess we had such a great time, that they offered me to stay and get a room if I did my fair share of work. It sounded so tempting to me at the moment, to catch a break. But I was only in Ireland for two weeks and had a lot on my to do list to see. So I made a decision to keep walking and touring instead of letting myself get comfortable. I ended up in an eighteen hour trip, with a couple people giving me a ride for part of the way. I think I walked for about twelve of those eighteen hours. When I finally made it to Belfast, it was morning and I was looking for a Hostle to rest my head cause I couldn’t walk anymore. The lady I asked instisted I go to McDonalds with her and get breakfast and a coffee. I do not know what made her think I was that bad, but I am grateful for all her help that day.

The young lady has been on this mission of hers for some time. She seems to have enough to keep her going day by day without much money in her pockets. She might not eat every day. She might not stop walking most of the day. She might not shower or change clothes everyday. But she is still moving, traveling through this trail. She receives messages from this person from an unknown source, but this person seems to be communicating with her, guiding her on this path she is heading. No one knows what her source is besides her. She only gets to be on her smartphone for 2 hours a day limit. It could be her own conscious that is guiding her and she places it in a person, or there could be a person she talks to or gets her information from in that short time she has her phone on. Whatever it is, she seems to be in tuned with the universe and it is being guided through this journery from the south part of the Mexican borders to the north. She is on her way to what she and her friends consider the promise land, the land of hope. The United States of America. Somewhere there.

There is no current information on how long she has been walking now, how long she has been with these friends of hers, or how far down Mexico has she traveled or how much more she has to go. They were walking down a long road after having gotten rained on not that long ago, on their way around a set of mountains they decided to instead of through them. Not sure what they have gone through so far. But now they have found themselves in a ranch of a friendly driver who stopped and offered to give them a ride for as far as his place was. He also offered them work in his ranch for a couple of days before they go on their way. They have just now arrived to the ranch and are looking around.

WE all need help down the road we travel. We all need food and water. We need rest and sleep. And we all need some kind of motivation to keep us going. Some have spiritual motivation. Some choose money, dreams, goals, or accomplishments to motivate them. Some need family to motivate them. People. We all need something to keep us going. And as we travel through those trails, we find that energy to give us exactly what we need at the right moment in time. It usually works that way, even if we don’t believe it at first. The mysteries of the universe. Sometimes we get caught up in our mission or our personally goals, and determination to reach them, and we stop paying attention to the signs and the help from the universe. Our minds get caught up in our constraints and time frames, that we stress ourselves out way more than we should. We punish ourselves more than we should or force ourselves to not allow ourselves to do the things that our minds would like us to do. Sometimes, and I am guilty of this one quite a bit, we critisize ourselves too hard, too tough, too much. Once we let go and ease up a little, we find that the universe works things out at the right moment. We need to sometimes take that rest, or accept that help someone offers. We have to learn to give ourselves a break.

“Just for two days please!” Leo pleads, “I have to still talk to all the guys, but it appears that they want to stay the couple of days. Look! I know you don’t care. I know you don’t. But please, just please reason with me this once. Listen to me for once. I don’t want to chase you. You know that if you go I will go with you. I cannot stay anywhere in peace thinking that you are out there trying to find this damn person that might not exist.” She turns aways, Leo grabs her arm and continues, practically begging “I’m sorry I just…I can’t let you go out there by yourself. I am scared, what if I find you dead somewhere, once I get up from resting while you kept walking. I would punish myself. I would blame myself for letting you go out there alone. Please! We all need a break. Including you. You smelllll….” They both laugh and she tells him that he smells too.

“I know! We both need to freshen up. Get our clothes cleaned. Eat and rest our feet for just a little bit. I am not saying that we have to give up on your mission. I just want you to give yourself a break.”

“You don’t have to follow me. I stop when I feel it is the right time and the right place. I appreciate the ride, I just don’t feel that this is the place to rest. I can still walk. I need to walk. I don’t care about your friends. They are all lost. They don’t know where they are going. They are just following along. They could live or die. No one will know that they are here or gone. So why would I care what they think? And you! I don’t know what ideas you have in your head. But I am not interested in you” she replies.

“Why? Because you believe this person is going to let you into his house and be happy to see you? Welcome you as if you were expected for a very long time?” he asks angrily.

“You think that we were connected for some special reason! You think you found me because I am the one that is supposed to be yours. Why? Because out of the many people we have come across along the way, I am the only female around your age that you have come across and followed for a while? You think that by you chasing me, “saving me” as you so claim, and keeping me company that I am going to suddenly give into your lust. That I will “settle down” with you? IS that what you are thinking, dumbass? Cause if it is then I can tell you that you are totally wrong. I do not have to tell you anything about the messages I receive, how I receive them or how I know that I need to keep following their guidance instead of yours. I don’t have to explain anything to you. I left my country for freedom! For freedom! IF I marry you or settle for you, I lose my freedom. I lose myself, to satisfy your ego. I would have to tell you what you demand me to tell you. I would have to obey you. I would have to live the same way I lived in my country. Why do I want that? Especially with you. Who do not have any money. You do not have an idea what you are going to do in U.S. except work. But right now you do not know where you are going to work. What you are going to do. Where you are going to live. Why would I follow you or be with you, when you are following me like a lost puppy. Like a dog I found wandering around and decided to follow me and protect me from dangers. And you expect me to bow down to you? Give yourself a break!” she snaps back.

With his head down he gets up out of the chair and tells her that he will go talk to the guys and see what they would like to do tonight. It is dark now, and it seems like the best thing to do is to rest here in the ranch, but he couldn’t relax if he wanted to, with the thought that she might end up leaving in the middle of the night. All the fellas agreed that they had no intentions of leaving tonight at any time of the night. In fact, they felt it was best to sit out these two days at the ranch helping out the old man. They already showered, and were promised food and a bed to sleep in, so they were not going to conspire against this kind stranger, they all agreed. Leo was caught in between deciding to go with her, just the two of them, or convince or force her to stay somehow. He already knew there was no way he would change their minds. If it wasn’t for her, he wouldn’t have had a second thought to the offer either, so he understood why all the other men did not want to give up this needed opportunity. He had convinced them several times to keep going instead of heading a different direction, or following the group or anything. So how could he ask them again for another huge favor, he asked himself. Especially since there have been several times that because of her poor choices, they all had things happen that could have been avoided.

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