Everything I planned on doing at that time I am still doing now and look back at what I have done and think how cool it sounds now what then did not sound good to me. My parents and others still talk negative whether they intent to or the opposite. So just do it.
The problem is that you think you have time… That is a great message she had me write on the artwork. Let me see if I can keep up with my thoughts on this one, and hopefully you can follow as well. I wrote all these poems after surviving a stabbing and published a poetry book All About U by age eighteen. There are several lessons I wrote, not only to my future generation but to my future self as well. Somewhere in between then and now I wrote a poem where I wrote ‘not even I paid attention to the lessons I tell them‘ and that is to focus on you and only you. I still have to replay that message in my head over and over to remember it, lol. Hint on why I am focusing and promoting my single “You and Only U” that I did on YouDJ platform with my first poem All About U in my book All About U.
Since I wrote those poems I had a goal to turn them to songs and pieces of artwork that went along with the whole theme as a collective piece of lessons per song from visual to audio. There are several people I let interrupt that goal causing me to come and go back to dreams that I must achieve as I told myself and my future generations in those poems, songs and pieces of art. At least I can reflect on the work I was able to accomplish when I did and I am still timestamping my work by publishing it here and in other places. WordPress, YouTube, Spotify, Instagram, Facebook, you name it.
So the lesson I wish I would have learned earlier is to dream it, do it, live it and love it with abundance and positive affirmation all the time.
Just like that, do not skew the sentence one bit. Because I have always done what I desired to do and I continue to dream big. I always have. Today I told DrethaMaccc that one must be like the archers shooting much higher than their target, not to reach such heights but to hit their intended target with ease. I did not always live it or love it as I should have. I let my thoughts of ‘nobody in my family wants to help’ and ‘if I had others in my family believing in me like I do’ and so forth and so on. Many many and I do mean many times I had to feel like “they don’t like it but f- it I’m going to do it” and I did and I do. But I didn’t live and love it, just kept thinking how much better it could be. Several times in life I felt “if only” and “what if” but then I say just do it now.
Just do it now. The only reason I am answering this daily prompt is because I am doing it now. I am not focusing on just the problem, but also correcting what I still can now. That is why I am up day and night getting all our old music that is possible to release available, because I second guessed everything before and wished I had not. When ICT – Makavenna and I made all this music, in one year we made 4 albums with each at least 16 songs along with quite a few singles. Fourteen year old Makavenna made over 50 songs before putting her music on hold. Only one album was and a few songs were released from all that work we did.
For the second part of my sentence and desire “with abundance and positive affirmation all the time” I hope that the many wonderful talented writers pay attention to this part of my lesson. What you write, you manifest. What you think you attract. What you focus on you get more of. I understand that we ALL need to out our emotions and this is a safe place to do it. I do it as well, lash out my feelings on my blogs from time to time. However, I do my best to focus on the lesson or the message that I can pass on to myself to keep going and pushing forward. To keep striving and grinding. To keep your head up high and believe in what you can achieve. Tell ourselves, yes this happened to me but…from that I accomplished, I gained, I overcame…. and let me tell you why.
Before I got stabbed I wrote raps and rhymes at fourteen saying I did not think I would live to see past sixteen and I almost didn’t. I wrote all these stories to inspire but I also wrote myself into more tragedies and instances where friends turned to foes and backstabbing bros and going through hell in order to get out of it and avoid it. So I wrote myself going to jail and I did. When those things became reality, I was like “ohhhfffff….. this is this moment!” I remember it well.
One day I was thinking about that novel I wrote around 19 years old where I had written myself into those problems. It was a novel and I felt it needed drama to be catchy. The name of the novel was called Life Until Death, which was about my life until I married death. It was quite entangled but the play on words were the lady’s last name being Astala Muerte, which incorrectly spelled translates to Until Death. So the story was about my life Until Death. I hope not to see that girl again because that character I wrote about was based on a girl I dated at fourteen years old. Gangster Love, lol.
IF fragments of that story have made it to my memory to cross reference what I lived, I can only imagine what else I wrote that came true. I have kind of decided not to read it. I keep moving forward and rewrite my story in a more positive desirable event like going from Airbrushes to Airplanes. So even if more of what I wrote back then still manifests, the great thing is that I am definitely living my life until death with no regrets.
he would always qoute that ‘Matrix’ movie! Creepy. What was it? You would tell me all the time. ” Would you have dropped it if I hadn’t said anything” Crazy talk.”
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There is another funny future story I wrote. That one was current, sometime last year. That is something to think about and something I do say sometimes. I say like in the Matrix “would you have dropped it if I hadn’t said anything”
There it is dear readers and writers. Watch what you say and what you write. You are manifesting it into reality, whether it is good or bad what you wanted to say or not. A lesson I am doing my best to be aware of.
Thank you all much love and gratitude for you taking the time to read. Why, because I am truly grateful for you and I am grateful for this opportunity. Dream it, do it, live it and love it with abundance and positive affirmation all the time.
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