I am revealing my age a little with this one. But when I was about five, the song “Man in the Mirror” made an impact in my life. Say what you want about the man, but the music he made had powerful influence on many. I am sure there are two sides to Mr. Michael Jackson, just like there are two sides to every story, and many dimensions to being a human being. I read or heard somewhere that we live most of our lives by what we were programmed from birth to seven. Somewhere around that number.

It still tears me up for a moment to see the video and hear the song in a time when an individual can be judged and canceled for who or what they listen to, how they vote and more. Anyone who has read or hear my stuff made publicly, it is a mixture of topics that you might or might not like. But I have tried to be myself as authentic as possible while also learning and adapting to my new wisdom. Controversial. We seek drama, conflict and love hearing or watching a great story unfold. But we want to think that our hero in the story is on a hero’s journey.

I am not a good judge of character. I have misjudged people I thought liked me and people that I thought did not. Imagine your friend stabbing you and your enemy saving you. And how many of us have quoted “et tu Brutus!” in our life before?

I trusted the people I looked up to and pops never was one of them. Now everything from Hollywood to DisneyWorld have been exposed in some form or fashion. That was a slap in the face. Many current exposed people were already exposed by Tupac before he was no longer with us. I say that as loosely as possible because many things about him are controversial and don’t make sense either. I’ve always had problems trusting authorities who are as guilty as me. I don’t trust the presidents, they only look out for their family and they are all related. Wouldn’t you do the same? So, who is in the mirror?

Who is in the mirror?

Tupac was my hero in my teens. But I cannot tell you if what they say or said about him is right or wrong, or if he was right or wrong for the things he did. I was not there and I was not him. I believed what I believed at one time and I related to many of his lyrics. I’ve felt like an outcast, outlaw that wanted to help other misfits. Possibly due to that song, “Man in the Mirror” and other music like Phil Collins and more than influenced me as a child. One of the things that I sought out to do is help others with my lyrics like Tupac did when I was a teenager. He was the one I related to in the mirror, and ironically enough he said in one of his songs, “I hate the man in the mirror.” After being stabbed in the neck and the back when I was 16 years old, I had the same sentiment about looking in the mirror. And now when I see myself in the mirror I say to myself “oh shit, that is me now? Okay cool.” Time flies!

Here is how I tie it to being a judge of character. One of these gurus or influencers I listen to, probably Billy Carson, mentioned that when you are judging someone else, you are actually seeing things about yourself in that person. Since there is a tendency to think bad about others, then there is something bad within ourselves that we are catching on to someone else doing. A liar spots a liar lying on the spot. That is my opinion and nowadays and before I say something, while I am saying something or after I said something about someone else I ask myself why am I saying that and how does it reflect on me. Is it something I did in the past, something I believe without admitting now or is it something that was done to me that still affects me? Just like the example I gave above about the presidents. They are only looking out for their own families assuring their legacy continues. I am quite sure I am saying that because I am doing the same for my family, trying to preserve a legacy. Another example I truly relate to. When someone is selling an idea or a program online and lure you in with a solution to a problem, I pay for the information they are providing if I think it provides value to me. If the course is $1,500 I will save or pay without accusing them of trying to get rich. I’ve seen and heard comments from people in the programs I paid for where someone is upset that they are being sold. I see it as simple as anything else, if you don’t agree, stop participating. But shouting out someone’s name is only giving the other person fame. So even if you are right in how you judged someone else, others may have never heard about #AlexAirbrushLuna until you started talking about that person, good or bad, as an example. So you can take your favorite nemesis and recall how much energy you give to your rival and not yourself. And I leave you with this quote that I also do not recall who said it or where I heard it first or last.

“When you blame others, you are in a low frequency. You take a step up when you stop blaming others but instead blame yourself. And you are in a higher frequency when you realize there is no one to blame.” Everything happens for a reason and I do believe it was Joe Dispenza that said “things are happening for you not to you.” Tell your story as the hero in your own hero’s journey.

That is my rant for today. I hope you judge me wisely, lol.

#AlexAirbrushLuna