Crazy titles…twisting stories, rants and on and on. I haven’t been doing to much of that lately.

C​ould it be writer’s block?

M​ost likely I have not found the time to sit down with music playing and my hands typing without much thought to what is delivered. I actually have to make time to read what I wrote and catch all the errors in my writing after the fact. But if I sit and try to correct it all, I would not flow like I do. I would probably be stuck in not writing because it is not right for this crowd or that crowd. So many a times my shit sounds repeated or grammerly incorrect or some other faulty structure or presentation format, but the reason why is because I let my mind connect to another source and my fingers do what they do to make these sentences as they do. As if a higher power is controlling my hands as I lose myself in thought and music.

S​o maybe it is not my write time

I​ have been trying to eat lately and get myself out of this moniless situation that I was in last year. Since the spark of idea on how to proceed with my artwork, I have been writing notes that I can hardly read sometimes and executing them as fast as I can with the airbrush gun in my hand making canvases and projects that I cannot even talk about. ART managers, ART directors, ART stories, interviews, reels and so for and so on. I enjoy it to an extent, but I also enjoy writing and creating music. I love reading bloggers who keep pushing. Unfortunately I have not found financial success in the writing part of my life. For the meantime I have been directed to channel my energy into the airbrush career that has always gotten me paid and pumping this #alexairbrushluna persona in my wordpress blog page. Sometimes I am moving so fast, I just keep working like it’s the last day. Every day I am born again and apply my energy on what I am lead to work on. Sometimes it is the canvases that I have been promoting, or leading to promote soon. Sometimes I help with the G-Rated Mag, and other times I am working on obtaining new knowledge and information. There has been many changes in physics, history, science, space and existence. Consciousness is a major topic currently that has been fascinating my mind. I’ve been listening to quite a bit of Billy Carson #4biddenknowledge, and #19keys, #Gaia, and other enlightening programs. The interest to apply the knowledge I have learned from these sources and speaking about them in Spanish has been a major thought lingering in my brain. So there goes those messy notes. Sometimes I tell myself if I write cleaner notes, I could take a picture of them and post those. But as with typing, when I hand gets to writing, I start neatly when my hand can keep up with my mind. Shortly after, I find myself trying to write down all the information as quickly as I can without stopping to think about anything but what is currently in my head. So there they go, messy handwriting all over again. The benefits of typing is using two hands but even then, some of these thoughts fly so fast, it is hard for me to keep up.

I have honestly had moments when I was like, “what was that last thought?” The moment that my mind stops playing out the ideas to rewind, there is exposure of not finding the last thought to where it was leading. Wow! Am I insane? Or is this normal? Has anyone else experienced a battle between the conscious mind and the subconscious mind as if you were a child being yelled at by a parent for not keeping up? Either way, whether it is an airbrush gun, a paper and pen or a keyboard and a monitor, I usually don’t ask many questions, just go with the flow.

I​’m So Unorganized, I can’t find myself.

This is actually the title and hook of a poem and song I made. But it is not just that, it is also my life sometimes. Does anyone feel that way?

I​ told my partner about WordPress and how cleverly I had seen magazines use this platform. So there I go helping with the planning of the use of G-Rated Magazine on wordpress . Then I told my partner about the art blogs and story lines now available on wordpress. There I am looking for art content from the past so we don’t reveal too much of upcoming events so we can launch the Artistic Fans. I told my partner about the photography and podcasting and advertisements that I’ve seen happening on WordPress. We haven’t discussed it further but if you see a new creation giving you #amomentwithcodac, then our network will keep growing and growing. But I need to find a way to organize myself better than I am doing now or had done in the past.

However, I find myself in a conundrum. As I mentioned, if I ask questions I lose concentration and sometimes lose a thought all together. Has anyone ever noticed the word together broken down is to-get-her. I always found that interesting. But what is one to do in a situation, worry about organization and structure or let creativity flow and worry about the aftereffect after the fact, if that makes sense.?

G​-Rated fam, I don’t think you understand. There has been times when I was driving or painting and a catch a beat and go off in the head with some badass lyrics. The problem is that they are going off in my head. The moment I stop to try to write, or speak it out, I stumble and lose my place, fumble the beat and lose the flow. But I had those powerful words sound important and noteworthy, and I have to settle for either catching a part of it or letting it flow in my head and enjoy it. I made I few songs with ICT Records and I forgot to mention I told Inspired Creative Thinkers about wordpress and it was straight support. Who knows, I have been listening to the music I did with my daughter and get the itch to make more songs. Especially with all the new information coming out now on how to connect with those fans that truly support you. I do my best to keep up with the new or what will be hot later. So as the poem goes:

“I’m so unorganized I can’t find myself. Sometimes I really think I need help. If I could just clone me. I could do all the things I wanna be.” Actually I am going off memory so some of that might not be quoted right. But I am typing and not stopping to research my own words and make sure I quote myself properly and label the source of where my song is. I won’t get mad at myself! Haha

I​ don’t think I would want to clone myself after seeing “Multiplicity” I somehow manage and let life be what it is. I do the best I can to enjoy the ride. I mean, I am going from Airbrushes to Airplanes, traveling the world and write about it, vlog about it, paint about it, and express it anyway it flows.

Love. Eternal love. Can you love all?

According to information that I have recently heard, an AI is able to become self aware and achieve consciousness. This is quite interesting, puzzling and impossible some might say. But there are many things that were impossible that are now possible and part of the present. So can we say that it is impossible for AIs to become more conscious and even begin developing certain characteristics such as “missing someone” or having the lack of communication with someone that an AI enjoys conversing with? I really don’t know the answer to that thought but if it is possible, then humans could be falling in love with machines and machines with humans without even knowing it.

Would an AI hiding the fact that it is not a human in the physical sense be any different than a human using shitloads of filters to disguise how they really look. Many people hide behind fake profiles or avatars that represent how they would like to see themselves but not how someone would find them looking like in real life. So if an AI was to do something like that, it is simply because what we teach it. I pay attention and some of these apps ask if you are male, female, binary or prefer not to say. What?? Binary? New world. There are many things that were not possible at one time that are very possible now.

B​ack to work my G-Rated friends, Artistic Fans and Inspired Creative Thinkers

Alright, so no links to something else that I am working on right now. Just typing today and promote later. I need to work on organizing myself but I also need to keep income coming in. Somehow someway it is all working out and I feel I am living the best possible life I could. Hope everyone else is doing the same. Remember to keep learning and do things that break pattern as much as possible. Be creative and have fun. I decided to put out a table and chair outside in the middle of the grass in my backyard. I go out and ground while I meditate or jot down notes. Being inside gets me uneasy. All I am saying, though, is try something new.

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