There are no heroes or villains. That is my opinion. This is a song that I love to listen to, that I might not get to release as it because I did not make the beat and after the beginning of the song that we put our words to, the rest of the song is General Steele (AKA Steele Of Smif-N-Wessun) Feat. Dead Prez – Cry Freedom. I relate to the part he says “He wuz a menace, yup that’s what they be thinkin’“
I get tired of searching for this song everywhere, so I am going to share with everyone on here this unreleased song of an unreleased album three for ICT – Makavenna. The song is titled “The Reason We Desire Revolution“
The guy with TATTOOS might look scary but is not
The guy with the suit might kill us all to get to the top!
ICT – DJ Lexo
The song fits with the point I am trying to make in this post with the question posed, what is something people don’t know about me. I am not the bad guy. I cannot tell what most people think or don’t think, know or don’t know about me. I can only tell you what I have experienced and why I have felt over and over throughout my past I get looked at like the bad guy.
When I was a teen I really started doing whatever I wanted to whether it got me in trouble or not. The reason is because everyday when I got home I got in trouble for something whether I did it or not. If it was told to his majesty, I got punished. So at about the age of 14 I got a ticket for fighting in school, detained by the police and a few mischiefs in the mindset of rebellion. By age 16 I got stabbed in the neck, then started the path I am in as an artist businessman.
Before I became a citizen I had been pulled over and harassed several times by authorities. I felt and called myself a minority. By 19 I became a citizen of this wonderful country, and a year later slave after having been incarcerated. It is what my lawyer explained to me after I got out of jail. The truth about my future existence I suppose. I was a young businessman with all these dreams, only nineteen. I was running a successful airbrush shop that sold music as well. We did our own music and made our own magazines. However, funding all my projects was a challenge. Especially when many look at me with a judgement that I am a criminal or something initially. Even friends tell me I look gangsta and I reply with “what do you mean? I’m just me.” The answer I get to that is exactly. Anyway, I needed to fund my projects, ideas and businesses. So I did what most of us do when we get to that point where we gotta do what we gotta do. Especially when society pushes you to think it is what you have to choose. The people that look like me do that so why would I not?
So it led me to a cell but I was already imprisoned in my mind. After I did my time I was put in a system with deferred adjudication probation. Meaning if I messed up once while on probation, I would automatically default to serve ten years for my previous crime plus whatever fault of mine. A year later my daughter was born, and a year after that her mom left. I have been determined not to leave my daughter without her father either. I had to break the cycles. Because I have been the blacksheep all my life in my family and in my daughter’s mom’s life, she grew up without her mom or dad.
Not A Bad Guy
I have been the single father since my daughter was a year old. Everywhere I went I have been looked one way or another because of how I look or the fact that my daughter does not have a mother raising her. What they actually think about me I do not know, but I have received many signals that it is not good. This made my daughter feel like the odd one, the gray sheep, son. This is why we made music the way that we did. To talk about the things that we felt were going on and did not seem right.
I am not the bad guy. I have been a single man, a single father trying to raise my daughter different. It has not been the case on how we have been perceived. Imagine being a child constantly asked why you do not have a mother. Those that know know and I would not have to explain. In this country, growing up without a father seemed reasonable but not growing up without a mother. Many of us grew up with neither, whether they were in our lives or not. So here is one of our many stories that is actually on YouTube, Spotify and many platforms of music.
Our stories, Makavenna and I, are intertwined with many stories that have crossed our paths verbally, written or in other points of views. I feel our point of our music is that there are many experiences we all have as individuals. It might seem we are the only one going through something that seems painful or harsh, but there are others who have been through similar experiences, feelings and thoughts. I felt like the like the blacksheep and her a gray sheep, judge by being born of two blacksheeps in their family. It is what she has shared she felt several times. We put words into songs to hopefully reach anyone who feels hopeless, outcasted, and like the villains.
Ironically as we were telling our story, Disney decides to tell stories like Descendants, which are the children of the villains of your favorite pastime movies. Cinderella, Snow White and all those other fairy tales. Descendants on Disney is the story of the kids of the villains. Now they are releasing a movie called SuperVillains, which give us vibes of Max from the Thundermans on Nick. Another villain child in a life of ‘heroes’ and it keeps repeating. I can keep giving you examples because I am a single father and it is my responsibility to know what my daughter watches.
Anyway, there are no heroes or villains
This is my words on the unreleased song and I enjoy listening to because it is truly what I feel.
What goes through my brain, you couldn’t comprehend man
Hear us hollerin’ unity! But what does that mean?
We won’t put our guards down and just sing (cumbaya)
We just need to realize we live similar lives
Paying for shelter, food, clothing and our rides
Also paying for our mistakes
Live and learn and try to change our ways
If we could only see! No matter what color or race
This is what we face. Maybe we can relate!
Look at a person as an individual regardless white, black, brown.
Some people are just evil.
But it doesn’t apply to everyone. It is just some one!
It can be any one!
The guy with tattoos might look scary but is not
The guy with the suit might kill us all to get to the top!
Not The Bad Guy
When I went to Ireland as I left the airport I was flagged for looking like a suspicious drug dealer. I was questioned how much money I had and what else was I carrying. We landed in Turkey and I was flagged down by their authorities for one reason or another. I don’t know the language so I cannot tell the real reason but I can guess. Because when we landed in Ireland I was flagged at their airport too. It felt out of place when I was in Northern Ireland going south and our bus was stopped by immigration. They ignored me and kept walking. This felt like the first time that ever happened. I have been so programmed I as I got out my passport I was almost ready to put my hands up in surrender and to express I am unarmed. I was ready to drop to the floor and spread my legs so I can get searched for weapons. It is how I have been treated at home over and over again. Being ignored and not the suspect felt like first time for everything.
Anyway. Back to Turkey, suspect. I land at the airport back home and get treated like a terrorist. I did indeed. Did not get treated like a citizen or even as a person who speaks the same language. And it continues.
A couple of weeks I went to the local Hobby Lobby art store, and I will call out the names, I don’t care. In the airbrush section they have put the paints inside a glass case so they don’t get stolen. And every time I have to ask for an assistance, they look at me like I could be the cause for why they need to put the paint behind locked glass cases.
When I exit the store, there were two police vehicles in each side pointing at my direction as if they were ready to receive a call of a disturbance. I wonder who assumed that and called that in. Is it just my imagination? I don’t know but I am too old to steal from Hobby Lobby or the real thieves, Createx who changed their formula and hiked up the prices. The institutions and the corporations who only see profits. What are they doing? I am passing knowledge, experiences, art, music, poetry and information to my family. Working on generational wealth, and “create a legacy my kids can afford instead of leading them astray, when I leave they won’t be lost” like General Steele (AKA Steele Of Smif-N-Wessun) said on his song. Another person to talk about generational wealth, earn and learn and more powerful knowledge and wisdom, is Mr. Billy Carson.
I leave you with this last favorite song of mine where Ed Miles and I say “They call us Bad Cause We Brown!” like Ice Cube said in his song and Kid Frost sampled in a song as well.
And this song by Nate Dogg who said “My mother, she bowed her head in disgrace…”
Rest in Peace Nate Dogg, Tupac and all the fallen soldiers. Everyone else, keep your head up and lets keep handling it. Let’s change the world for the better future for our kids, and their kids and their kids, kids.
#AlexAirbrushLuna
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